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07 March 2006 @ 06:51 pm
my angel...  
I don't know if you remember but I posted in November when I was told that my Noel had terminal cancer. You all were very understanding and I was touched by your outpouring of sympathy.

Noel passed this Friday. I was alone with her when she went and it's been incredibly hard. I miss her so much. Home just isn't home without her.

I had a wonderful christmas and winter break with her and I'm glad I could be there with her when she passed. Yet, I keep thinking is there something more I could've done? I hate having to picture her that way. Having to see such a sweet, warm, cheerful dog waste away and die. Luckily, her death itself was very easy and peaceful.

Sorry for the depressing post. I just want to remind all of you to cherish the time you have with your angels!!! (as I know you all do)

Thank you for all of your understanding.
I am feeling: crushedcrushed
NH: Cornholioxsaltyx on March 8th, 2006 12:00 am (UTC)
Rest in peace, Noel... my thoughts are with you and your family.

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...
Jenlillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 12:06 am (UTC)
that was so beautiful...

haha...people probably think I'm a weirdo sitting here with tears in my eyes in the middle of the computer lab.

thank you so much for sharing that.
NH: Cornholioxsaltyx on March 8th, 2006 12:09 am (UTC)
Aw, no problem. *hug*
Lauramaybeyousavedme on March 8th, 2006 07:06 am (UTC)
it made me cry too.. =(

Your baby is no longer hurting.. and is playing with all the other babies up in doggy heaven:o)
Ravenvoice: skyravenvoice on March 8th, 2006 12:08 am (UTC)
so sorry.... Sky King sends puppy hugs
Jenlillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 12:18 am (UTC)
thank you very much

there's nothing better than puppy hugs. :)
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Jenlillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 12:21 am (UTC)
It does bring me some comfort because I can think of how happy she was on christmas with all of the attention and toys...

thank you so much for commenting.
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Jenlillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 12:42 am (UTC)
Thank you very much...

That's what I keep hoping...she always loved tennis balls and treats. I just want her to not be some place happy, playing with tennis balls and with as many treats as she needs...waiting for when I can join her.
Agatha Higginbotham: Rascal the Great!princezna on March 8th, 2006 01:27 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry. She's up there running with my Rascal now!
Jenlillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 02:21 am (UTC)
Aww...I hope they're having fun.
vixvix on March 8th, 2006 01:35 am (UTC)
*hugs* I'm sorry for your loss...
Jen: drunken melillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 02:21 am (UTC)
thank you so much
C.a.t.h.i.e: Heaven_simplyinlove on March 8th, 2006 01:59 am (UTC)
Oh lord the tears are flowing.

I'm sorry for your loss, but I'm very happy that her passing was peaceful. I had a dog that had a nose tumor and his breathing was blocked and his nose constantly bled. It was so rough to watch, so I'm glad that you were lucky enough to have a peaceful passing. I hope things get easier, because I don't honestly know how I am going to survive not having Violet in my life (I hope she does not pass for like 10+ years). I worry constantly about something happening to her...okay I'm rambling.

But if you ever need anything just let any of us know. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers and I'm happy Noel had a peaceful passing. We'll miss her!

Lots of love and kisses,
Cathie and Violet
Jen: stdlillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 02:23 am (UTC)
I don't know why my comment isn't showing up...

Originally we just thought noel had a tumor on her leg but we found out towards the end that noel had a tumor the size of a fist in her stomach. she eventually stopped eating...and became very tired. The last couple days she began to have trouble breathing. It was so weird for me because she had been vomitting and restless all morning but her death came so fast and without any real suffering. I couldn't believe it had really happened, that's how quick it was. So I understand how you felt about your dog. :( It's rough but I keep thinking that she's not suffering now.

I wish violet a very happy and long life! I had 11 wonderful years with noel...she was my best friend. It's good that you appreciate Violet now when she's healthy and not just when she gets ill.

Thank you so so much for the thoughts and prayers...it really means so much to know that people understand the loss and care.

I hope you have so many wonderful years with Violet!
hergurl on March 8th, 2006 03:37 am (UTC)
I am really sorry for your loss. I know that it meant a lot to Noel that you were with her.
Jen: drunken melillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 02:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much.
Rory and Charleyseethewizard on March 8th, 2006 01:33 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your loss. Here's another poem that expresses what we all feel for you:

I Stood By Your Bed

I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.

I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times your hands reached out to me.

I was with you at the shops today, your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, you tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you that I'm not lying there.

I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "It's me."

You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know that I was standing there.

It's possible for me to be so near you every day.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.

The day is almost over... I smile and watch you yawning
And say, "Goodnight, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.

I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out... then come home to be with me.

-Author Unknown

Jenlillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 02:36 pm (UTC)
That was so beautiful...thank you so much for sharing.
I do feel Noel's presence all the time. It's like I can almost see her..
I just miss her so much, every minute of every day.
I'm just a girlcute_bunny on March 8th, 2006 01:50 pm (UTC)
I'm so very sorry, I know you loved her very much. She's in Heaven now, watching over you.
Jenlillovebuzz on March 8th, 2006 02:41 pm (UTC)
Thank you...I don't think I could ask for anyone better to watch out for me.
mollybellemollybelle on March 8th, 2006 03:54 pm (UTC)
RIP Noel. You were and will be loved always and forever.

Kisses to you from Molly Belle and Bob and condolences from me, Alyson.
Jenlillovebuzz on March 9th, 2006 12:18 pm (UTC)
thank you so much.
Genevieve: baby Hogalwaysgenevieve on March 8th, 2006 05:03 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry :(
Jenlillovebuzz on March 9th, 2006 12:19 pm (UTC)

Thank you...
Rachel Leigh: Baxter By: look_its_alanaskippy3571 on March 8th, 2006 06:02 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. She is finally happy and healthy again and I know she misses you as much as you miss her.
Baxter sends sloppy kisses and I send my deepest sympathy, Rachel.
Jenlillovebuzz on March 9th, 2006 12:20 pm (UTC)
thank you...it's just comforting to know people care. I knew boston owners would understand more than anyone.
Pammiehoneybear281 on March 8th, 2006 07:18 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry! I understand what you're going through, my beloved Sissy passed the same way about 3 years ago. I grieved for such a long time, but I am so grateful for the time I had with her & for all the pictures I have of her! I'm sure your Noel is the newest best friend of Sissy up in doggie heaven. :)
Jenlillovebuzz on March 9th, 2006 12:22 pm (UTC)
I used to get so angry that she had that disease. It's just not fair that such a sweet little dog would have to suffer with it.
It's been a week and I still miss noel just as much as the first day it happened. I know it's going to take me awhile and I'll probably never fully get over it. I am so glad for the pictures too. I took so many cute ones around christmas. There were ones of her in reindeer antlers, and with her new toys, and playing. I look at those and it reminds me of how many amazing times I had. :(