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23 September 2008 @ 09:43 pm
Saying goodbye to Beasties?  

I worked for the breeders, looking after the Bostons at shows, doing handling in the unimportant classes. I always used Jennifer for junior handling, she was the nicest, all covered in freckles. When I found out she was to be bred, I said if there was a girl I would like to have it, I'd been saving paper route money. As it turned out Jennifer had 3 puppies, 2 fat roly poly boys and a crazy freckled girl. Jennifer and the girl puppy fought each other and had to be separated. She knew my voice and would come running, knocking her brothers all over. She had a partial clef pellet and sneezed a lot because of it. She was special, the only boston bitch born that year in the whole lower mainland. People offered over $1000 for her, but she was mine. Her name was Mardou's flying ford windstar, and I called her Arista. I was 10 years old.

Now, 13 years later, Beasties has been sleeping almost continuously, she breathes rapidly and seems to be in great pain. Her heart races and she wanders around bewildered, unsure of what to do. I feed her out of my hand and give her water with a syringe, because she seems to have forgotten where to go to eat and drink in the last day. Sometimes she's ok, other times she's hot to the touch and panting raggedly, maybe coughing slightly in a choking way. Maybe it's just discomfort I can ease with painkillers, hopefully I won't have to, make "the decision". Bostons aren't quitters and I don't want her to go that way. I haven't lost a dog yet. She seems peaceful now, sitting at my feet, her breathing quiet, her sightless eyes staring into the dark, and I think, maybe she'll be ok.
Kat: fuzzy bunnykittehkat on September 24th, 2008 06:20 am (UTC)
I'll keep you and Beasties in my thoughts!!! D: I'm sorry you have to consider this.
jennygel7: saysaysayjennygel7 on September 24th, 2008 07:06 am (UTC)
poor little puppy, and poor you. I feel for what you are going through right now. :(
jreid4 on September 24th, 2008 11:19 am (UTC)
You're both in our thoughts.
Defying Gravity: Tuffystarlit12 on September 24th, 2008 01:23 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear that.

I am the same way about my Tuffy. He will be 13 in October - and although he's totally fine, there are some days he does something weird, and I just end up crying because I know that some day he will be gone.

It is so hard to lose a Boston - but just know you gave her 13 years of a fabulous life.
vix: paw in the Bowl Cam from Puppy Bowl 2006vix on September 24th, 2008 01:32 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry this is happening. It sounds like she is ready to go -- the problem with Bostons not being quitters is that when their time comes, we have to help them understand it's okay to stop fighting. They are stubborn little creatures to the end, but when they're in pain and when they're suffering, we have to help them out. It's horribly difficult but they trust us to do right by them.

I wish you luck and strength with the coming days and the decision you're facing. You've given Beasties a lot of happy years; may that be of some comfort to you right now.
J'irai Cracher Sur Vos Tombesbird on September 24th, 2008 05:03 pm (UTC)
i am so sorry. i cant imagine how your heart must be breaking, but i hope that you find some comfort in the fact that she could not be luckier than to have a person like you looking out for her. when it is her time, you will give her the greatest act of love to help her end her suffering.

you will be in my thoughts.
fuzzichi on September 24th, 2008 05:47 pm (UTC)
You both are in my thoughts.
Sheribooksaremyhabit on September 25th, 2008 03:40 pm (UTC)
My heart is hurting for you and Beastie..my Tinkerbell is 12 now so I know what will be coming sooner or later. It's so hard to lose them. I know I've been through it several times now. Just love her and keep her as compfy as possible..just being around you I'm sure is very comforting for Beastie.