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24 September 2008 @ 02:56 pm
Thank you  

Thank you all for your loving thoughts at this tremendously hard time. I know Beasties is ok now, waiting for me at the rainbow bridge, it's me who is so hard off without her. I can't even sleep without her.

Beasties collapsed last night, then seemed to rally before going to sleep at bedtime. She woke up moaning in the morning and wet herself on the bed. Me and my boyfriend took a cab to the Emergency where they put her on oxygen and told us that she was in congestive heart failure and basically was drowning. We made the decision to let her go and I stayed with her until the end. It is quick like they say. I bawled and didn't want to let her go, but I knew it was time for goodbyes, and that she was already gone. I wrapped her up in the red blanket they left in the room and kissed her little head for the last time, that little soft spot behind her ear that smells like sleepy boston, then I left the room, looking back one more time to look at the little black ears poking out of the blanket.

I don't know when I'll stop crying, or how I will get through the next 3 days of work, I just am glad that I lucked out and happened to go home sick yesterday, and was able to spend all of her last hours with her.

Once again, thank you all so much.

Jennylittlesunflower on September 24th, 2008 10:17 pm (UTC)
My heart goes out to you in this difficult time of sadness and pain. It is the worst feeling in the world to lose a friend as loving and faithful as a dog, and there is nothing I can say to make you feel better, but I know that you and Beasties had a wonderful bond and her life was full of love and happiness, and that you will always have those amazing memories to look back on while you wait to reunite with your beloved friend. :( You are in my thoughts.
c'est moisarainc on September 24th, 2008 10:18 pm (UTC)
oh no!!! little baby beasties. this made me cry. I'm so sorry.
hello_blondie on September 24th, 2008 10:36 pm (UTC)
::hugs:: I really do not know what else to say =[
Sara Raesarakenobi on September 24th, 2008 10:43 pm (UTC)
oh you poor dear :( we are so sorry :(
Jessi: origin of lovemissbadexample on September 24th, 2008 10:55 pm (UTC)
I feel your pain. I remember how incredibly hard it was losing Pepper after having her with me for so very long. I'll tell you what my therapist told me: It's okay to grieve, and don't let anyone tell you that it's any less of a loss just because your family member didn't happen to be human.

I know this is hard, and I know it's going to take you a long time to get over this intense pain. Just remember that we're all here for you.
Genevieve: lulu daddy's girlalwaysgenevieve on September 24th, 2008 11:03 pm (UTC)
omg. i am so sorry Holly. How old was Beasties? Did you know about her heart condition?

ugh im so sorry once again :(
Sheribooksaremyhabit on September 26th, 2008 05:20 pm (UTC)
she was 13
(no subject) - alwaysgenevieve on September 26th, 2008 05:27 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Kimkimbalynne on September 24th, 2008 11:18 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry :( Poor Beasties...
Defying Gravity: Tuffystarlit12 on September 24th, 2008 11:35 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you.
ruby_socoruby_soco on September 25th, 2008 12:54 am (UTC)
You will be in our (Mine and Hugo's) thoughts. I am so sorry for your loss. I am crying for you, but I know she isn't feeling anymore pain. Crying helps, we all need to greive for our loved ones. The loss of a pet is so hard. They are not only an animal, but a best friend, a sleeping (and sometimes snoring) buddy, a member of the family, comic relief and a shoulder to cry on. You seem so strong. I envy you for that. I don't know what I will do when Hugo is gone....I really don't have anyone else that close.
yellekennayellekenna on September 25th, 2008 01:08 am (UTC)
I'm sorry for your loss Holly. Take care and I hope the pain starts to go away soon. *hugs*
Dragonfly_lily: Bostonsdragonfly_lily on September 25th, 2008 01:21 am (UTC)
I'm crying with you, as I too have lost a Boston (in 05). Any time I read about one of the babies dying, I cry. I'm so sorry for you.
I'm glad you were sick yesterday, too (you know what I mean). How fortunate for both of you that you got to be together.
We're all here to listen if you need to talk.
lonelypinkroselonelypinkrose on September 25th, 2008 01:24 am (UTC)
I am crying with you right now. As someone who has lost a dog a few years ago the pain is still there. I remember how hard it was to move and breath without my dog. I couldn't pick up the pieces of myself for days.
I am so sorry for your loss. I will definitely be thinking of you every time I look at my Wilbur.
jreid4 on September 25th, 2008 02:07 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry.

You're in our thoughts - it's very hard to lose a member of your family.

ashley jackson-pierceshesbeenelected on September 25th, 2008 02:11 am (UTC)
I know your heart is broken right now; I'm so so sorry for your lost. Beasties was beautiful.
ashley jackson-pierceshesbeenelected on September 25th, 2008 02:11 am (UTC)

Nancie: I Believeeicnan on September 25th, 2008 02:18 am (UTC)
One day at a time, the crying eases a little each day. I am so sorry for your loss.