My little puppy Daisy is very sick. But she is in the hospital right now. I feel so very helpless. I feel like this is all my fault. This is the week her vaccines are due and her heartworm medicine is due and I haven't done it yet, I was going to do it all tomorrow morning because I was busy today, but now she is sick. I know it isn't heartworm or rabies, so I don't see how her vaccines would have helped her, but maybe bringing her to the vet last week would have helped them see that she was sick. I kept telling myself "her checkup is the first week of August, so when she goes, mention that she is rubbing her bum on her brother, mention that she has thrown up a bit lately." And now it's too late. :( She was so sluggish today and didn't want to eat or play and she threw up SO MUCH and she was so ill so we rushed her to the emergency vet where she is now.

I really hope she gets better. The doctor said her kidney liver and heart sounded/felt fine, and it isn't Parvo, but she has an infection and a fever and she is bleeding from her intestine. :( I suspect she has eaten something that has made her sick. The doctor said she might have pancreatitis, or some other infection, but he is worried that she is bleeding inside. I really hope something isn't lodged in her little belly or intestine. I will totally pay for the surgery if she needs her intestines done or a blockage removed, but her hospital visit is already incredibly expensive and I just can't believe this is happening. I wish she wouldn't eat every goddamned thing she sees. I just can't believe what she could have eaten, I have been SO CAREFUL because I am SO AFRAID she will eat a pin or some glass or something. She really likes to eat anything crunchy. What if this time she isn't lucky and it cut her up inside?

The doctor said the biggest concern was that she is vomiting yellow, which means her stomach might have something wrong with the lining ( I totally didn't know that yellow bile was bad! I throw up yellow bile all the time, and Gambit has once or twice! I didn't know it was bad! I thought it just meant it was her empty belly since she wasn't eating) although she didn't vomit blood, and the blood in her stool and her foul diahrrea. So I am just praying praying praying that she will be okay. They are calling me in the morning. I am so so so afraid.